Direction

You would like to think that in a perfect world your life has nothing but good in it. That there is some ultimate plan that will make your life worth living. Give meaning to an otherwise monautanous lifestyle. But there are times when that hope leaves us, and we feel lost. The direction we once has changes...and we are stuck on the roads of life with no map. What was once security now turns to uncertainty...and the only way to get anywhere is by trial and error. I for one hate the feeling of not knowning wut things lie in store for me. The people you bring into your life, the choices we make as people, and the direction we choose to go everday is no different than christopher columbus thinking he found america. When in reality it was already found. Just not by himself. If that makes sense. In closing i think that we just have to take things as they come...and if they work out they work out. If they do not...there are plenty of other directions life has to offer. What is your direction?

Do you believe?

*Name This Rakim Song*

Sip the juice cuz I got enough to go around And the thought takes place uptown I grew up on the sidewalk where I learned street talk And then taught to hawk New York I go to Queens for queens to get the crew from Brooklyn Make money in Manhattan and never been tooken Go Uptown and the Bronx to boogie down Get strong on the Island, recoupe, and lay around. Time to bulid my juice back up- Props back up, suckers get smacked up Don't doubt the clout, you know what I'm about Knocking rappers off, knocking rappers out Shaking em up, waking em up Raking em up, breaking em up... Standing on shaky grounds too close to the edge Let's see if I know the ledge

A brand new morn, no time to yawn Shower's on, power's on Late for school, I catch the train Girls sip "Cristal" and whisper my name I push up like an exercise, Check the intellect and inspect the thighs Select the best one, pull her to the side Keep her occupied for the rest of the ride Read my resume she's know I'm 'ready cool Just meet me after school, We can moan and groan until your mom come home , And you be calling me Al "dope" Capone. Sweatin' me, she didn't want to let me loose- Come get me, that's if you want to sip the juice Cause the streets await me, so I take my gun off safety Cause alot of rappers hate me Coming out of the building, they set me up Sprayed wit automatics, they wet me up In a puddle of blood, I lay close to the edge I guess I didn't know the ledge.

The Grind

Whatever you choose to do in life you better be passionate about it. If you expect all that life has to give to come to you, your mistaken. The winners go out and take what they want. The people who don't, end up looking at the people who do. Find something you love or can be passionate about and do it like your life depended on it. Trust me...tangible results will start to show and all that hard work will get you places you never thought you could go. Put in that grind work...

Do you believe?

Wednesday...Whenever i encounter writers block i try and surround myself with new material. I read alot and reread some of the books that i find creativley stimulating. I had someone ask me yesterday of how i stay creative. Well ive been under the gun the last few weeks getting ready for the new Organotz Mixtape, and i wanted to write at least 12 new songs to be ready to record for them. I started reading Makievelli The Prince again, which basically is a hand held guide or rulebook to aspiring tyants. Its one of those books that really helps you become a thinker and think with a leaders mind. Its one of those books that help you develop foresight. For instance the majority of people out there do and dont think...they make the impulse choice. But they do not realize the complications or implications of their choices. This book helps you develop that wall to prevent the impulse choices from happening. Aight anyway so enough of that...lol but i do suggest that book, The Art Of War, 48 Laws of power, and confessions of a economc hitman.

Do you believe?

~The Good~

Tuesday...Thanksgiving is coming up and i started thinking about why people celebrate the holidays that they do. Like really think about the true meaning of thanksgiving and what it represents. And to be honest i dont know that i agree with it. The way its made out to be...is Native Americans and Pilgrims were sitting at the table breaking bread...when in truth the Pilgrims ransacked and pillidged Native American Tribes and Villages...raping there woman. Another holiday Easter and Christmas. I mean i was raised on these holidays. But like Xmas is a Christian holiday that i grew up celebrating, but my family isnt religious really. They dont go to church etc etc. So i started thinking that the concepts that they instill are good, even though one might not believe in the belief behind it. When i was young xmas was a time for family, gift giving, food and good spirits. It wasnt religious to us, but the good values i came away with by celebrating it was good for building character. So in the end i say that you can take good away from all things...even if you dont agree with the reasoning or belief behind it. Just understand what your celebrating...knowledge is power. The more you understand the less ignorant you become.

Do you believe?

~A Moment~

I was walking down the street the other day and I had a moment with a complete stranger. Now in this moment no words were exchanged, but it was one of those things where we both saw the same thing funny. Being that it's just winter in New York, it's starting to get cold and windy. During the winter people tend to bundle up to the point of creating their own environment inside their scarf and big hooded jackets. But on this day it was different. It was cold but I still had my hood down. There was this woman walking in front of me, and there was this big empty clear garbage bag that was blowing in back of her courtesy of the wind. So we're walking; Me, the clear bag, and then the woman. The entire way down the block the bag was following her. If she moved left.the bag would blow left. When she moved right.the bag moved right with her. You know that moment when you're by yourself and you smile thinking that no one is around you? Well this woman had one of those smiles goin on. But when she turned to look at the bag, she realized I was smiling with her at the situation. I thought that was intresting though, because that's a great metaphor for life. Sometimes were so wrapped up in our own little worlds, bundled in our "Jackets and Scarves" so to speak, that we miss the things that are going on all around us. And sometimes it takes something as small as a laugh with a stranger to remind us that when your down, you will always come back up.

Well you know what they say."When your down your really down. And when you're up you're really up". But it doesn't always have to be that way. I think one of the great parts of maturing, is understanding more than you did about life and how it works. When I was younger I used to get stressed out when things didn't go my way. I think we all can relate to that in some form. People deal with stress on different levels. But now when things aren't that great, I can take solice in knowing that as bad as it is or it gets, there will always be something to smile about, something to be positive about. Sometimes you just gotta take a step back and be content with the good things that are in your life, instead of focusing on the bad.

Do you believe?

...It'll be wut it is...

When it comes to relationships, nothing ever comes easy. Being that there are so very few people out there that are actually worth including in your life, we must make sure that when we have those people in our grasps that we find a way to keep them there. These are the people worth changing your life for. These are the people who not only leave a lasting impression on us, but help us be better human beings. They bring something out of us that no friend can bring out. They know a side of us that only they have the opportunity of seeing. They are the one who make you happiest and hurt you the worst. They are the one who makes you rip your hair out in frustration, but take you above the clouds when things are as they should be. And for that reason they are valuable.

But is it all worth it? There is no correct answer to that question. Each person has to look at what they have, figure out where they wanna be, and how that significant other factors into where they are going. For myself, i am someone who knows what he wants. There is no confusion, there are no games with me. Ive been through it all and through trial and error ive found what works best for me. But the inclusion of someone who doesnt operate how you do, takes some getting used to. It takes comprimise. It takes sacrifice. It means going to the end of the earth and back, because we know that along that jouney, they'll be right by our side doing the same. But nothing comes easy. If it did we would never be able to appreciate that special someone. I mean without pain how can we know pleasure. Without hate how can we know love. And without giving how could we appreciate getting. We could not. Which is why no matter how tough things get at times, we must keep a level head and look at the big picture. Because we know that it can't rain forever. That the morning after the storm, the sunshine is that much more brilliant. And if we are patient enough to tolerate the storm, without making rash decisions when we are angry, then it will make you that much stronger together. I mean why do you think makeup sex is so passionate?!? Becuase we come to that breaking point, and instead of taking the easy way out and giving up, we work it out because we know that other person is worth it.

And sometimes we dont realize what we have until its gone. That is the worst thing that can happen. The feeling of regret. The feeling of what if? The thought of losing something that could have been so good for us. We should never let that happen. Therefore we should treat it as such. When you lose things in life, you learn from it. For the next time, you learn that when you do have something worth having, you give it your all to make it work. You give it your everything to make it happy. I always say that i dont have the luxery of not having good people in my life. And if you give half ass effort, your gonna get half ass results, and i know i could never be proud of anything i didnt do to the best of my ability.

So in closing there is still so much to say about this subject. So much i could go on and on about. But in the end it comes down to one question.

ARE YOU WILLING TO DO WHAT IT TAKES TO MAKE IT WORK?

If the answer is yes...then start showing the person you care about that as best you can before its too late. Before it is you who regrets not giving it your all. No better time than the present to make sure someone you care about is in your future. Reread that last line, take two asprin, and call me in the morning.